For some of us the start of 2018 is the 20-year mark of our living the Ascension Process (AP) at the physical body biological level. Many of us started the AP a decade or more before that at etheric levels where we began doing mandatory Inner Work on our personal issues, emotional wounds, fears, imbalances, projections and all unresolved dense energies and energetic issues from our current life and any others that needed resolution now. In addition, some of us had been consciously and knowingly Working from our sleep states both individually and with groups of other Volunteers, Starseeds, Higher Dimensionals and other positive non-physical Beings for a decade and more before that. 

An even smaller handful of us have been conscious of being incarnate on Earth in these lives to anchor and Embody the evolutionary AP from infancy. Even though many of us have been at this multi-leveled AP since around 1998–1999 which has felt like a lifetime!, some of us have actually been at it since birth in this life, including a good number of past-lives all designed to help us carry out the AP and EP (Embodiment Process) from our current physical bodies here and now. No matter how many more decades you’ve personally lived the AP in this life, congratulations on reaching the physical level 20-year mark in 2018.

I’ve never read many people’s AP writings or channelings online or in books because the majority I did read a bit of years ago was distorted a little or a lot, incorrect overall, or reeked of Team Dark a little or a lot. As the AP years pushed on these past 20 years and counting, I knew once we got past December 2012, it would become increasingly obvious to more people (readers) who the authentic and knowledgeable AP teachers and writers actually were and who wasn’t and the wide range of levels between them.

One thing I’ve noticed since 2013 with a small few of the accurate AP writers, including some non-physical beings that channeled material (in my opinion), is a continuation from them of what sounds like judgements, mild insults, and talking down to type language to their readers.

Having said that I am painfully aware of how many times I’ve fallen short (a little or a lot) of actually producing what I intended to write about over the 15 years I’ve written online about the AP, and from a high and compassionate level. Writing about the AP and EP while living it is far more difficult than most realize for a range of reasons. Despite all that, I’m finding that because some of these teachers/writers who are still in 2018, saying certain things in their writings that sound and feel like judgements and mild insults, I’m increasingly having to go my own way, which is pretty much what I’ve done my whole life anyway. I’m well aware of how hard it is to write something and have 100 people read it and have 100 different interpretations of what I wrote and intended to express in my writing. I’ve dealt with this all along because it just goes with the job of writing about the AP and EP online. However in 2018, the NEW is pushing each of us to do this ourselves, and in our own unique ways, and at this time and this current level we’re each at now.As time goes on and we individually get better at being First Embodiers and energetically Sovereign beings in physical bodies, I believe these things won’t exist or won’t matter if they still do. But for now it’s increasingly feeling like, You’d better get really good at doing this yourself people! This is another aspect of becoming energetically Sovereign First Embodiers.

I hope I said just enough about this for most to recognize what I’m talking about without going into details. Recognize how advanced you are at this 20-year mark because Embodiment is a full-time job and way of life, reality and being. ❤

January 29, 2018, was another huge transitional energy shift day. The Total Lunar Eclipse was January 31st for those of you who are also having a time repeatedly locating and confining yourself in linear time. January 29th feels like half a year ago and yet it’s only been a few days. My point is that on the morning of January 29th I suddenly became super freezing cold on the inside from head to toe and shortly thereafter found myself quickly exiting my physical body via falling asleep. I slept most of that day which hasn’t happened to this degree since the big energies of 12-12-2012. The Total Lunar Eclipse two days later had very little affect on me because of what happened energetically on the 29th. Sometimes it’s not the highlighted day that’s important but the time leading up to it. In many cases, by the time we’ve reached the big day be that an Equinox, a Solstice, a Super Duper Whatever Spangled Total Lunar or Solar Eclipse, the whole thing was experienced, lived and Embodied by many PRIOR to the day or days it arrived. We went through another HUGE change energetically on January 29, 2018, two days before the Total Lunar Eclipse on January 31st.

February 1, 2018, was the 20th anniversary of my physical body biological level AP, so what happened that day makes sense to me for more reasons than the obvious. Stair-steps.

For me, twenty years ago it activated as a rapid and severe evolutionary Ascension Process at the physical body level. Twenty years later, it is the ongoing Embodiment Process at the physical body level. On the one hand the AP and EP are the same thing; on the other hand they’re radically different processes due to radically different levels of density, Light, energies, awareness, ability, existence and compatibility with greatly higher frequency Light energies. Twenty years ago I could not have done nor physically survived what I experienced in my physical body and Self Thursday, February 1, 2018. I’m sharing this experience because I know many of you went through your own versions of this in your own unique ways that were tailored to and for you at this precise time too.

With the start of January of 2017, I distinctly felt my ongoing and constantly escalating (by a little or a lot) Embodiment Process happening at greater levels than previously, as should be expected. I remember the day this happened as clearly as the day it happened one year later on February 1, 2018. I’d gone shopping in late January 2017, and while pushing my shopping cart to my car I felt so physically horrible and in such amplified pain that I honestly wondered if I’d be able to drive myself home. I was able to drive myself home but that NEW-to-me January 2017 level of physical pain and whole-body swelling was so severe that I wondered how 2017 was going to play out for the First Embodiers as it started with another EP expansion bang!

Jump forward one year to February 1, 2018, and I was shopping again and while in the store experienced this same amplification about a 100% greater than what it had been for me in January 2017. The physical pain was not only severe but was a whole-body affair and so amplified that I hoped I’d just make it to my car let alone drive myself home! I got myself home, the groceries unloaded into the house and put away. Once all the work after the work was done, I took some over-the-counter pain pills and got horizontal trying to have my muscles stop spasming and the pain stop or at least reduce a good bit. No such luck for hours on February 1, 2018 however. The severe whole-body pain continued for hours and I was not willing to endure that level of physical body pain any longer. I wanted to die and be free of that level of pain and was considering suicide in a way I never have before. Said another way, this was some serious shit going down and I wasn’t willing to suffer at such an amplified level as this was after a lifetime of other physical pains not to mention 20 years of Ascension Process pains. I tried every tactic I knew and nothing worked and it felt like the whole-body pain would break me in multiple ways. It probably would have had I not finally gotten pissed off by it all and demanded an explanation. Ya gotta LOVE the Embodiment Process!

The second I demanded an explanation to why the physical pain was so profoundly severe compared to anything I’ve ever experienced before, that blessed inner voice that sounds just like me said, “Because your Heart isn’t big enough.”

Are the images in this article of a heart expanding multiple times making sense yet? This is why; “Because your Heart isn’t big enough”… for the next level of the ongoing Embodiment.

The second I heard my inner voice Higher Awareness say this I knew exactly what it meant and why etc. I immediately set about making more personal inner adjustments to help my physical body with this painful EP moment at this NEW expanded and higher level. First I fully released and surrendered, then began intentionally breathing into my HighHeart to help it—my HighHeart—expand even more so it could comfortably house more of what was being Embodied at that moment. The second I began doing this the physical pains reduced considerably and eventually stopped altogether, however, what a moment of learning, expansion and further Embodiment it was! And, just so there’s no confusion, this EP will continue in leaps and bounds like this month after month and year after year so don’t think, believe or expect the Embodiment Process to be a once and done thing because nothing about the AP or the EP has or will ever work like that. Stair-steps because the higher frequency energies and sudden expansion would destroy our physical bodies which is exactly opposite of what’s intended with the AP and EP processes.

My heart wasn’t big enough because I was blocked, limited, fearful, hadn’t done the Inner Work or any other such incorrect thing. My “heart wasn’t big enough” for another and higher frequency layer of Embodiment to happen on the physical level, comfortably.

The Embodiment Process is ongoing and much like physical exercising and “working out” to create a more healthy, fit and/or attractive physical body is. You don’t exercise only once and instantly have the “perfect body”, it takes time, effort and plenty of repetition before one even begins to see external results from all the hard sweaty exercise work. The same is true with the Embodiment Process; it takes time, effort and plenty of repetition to slowly, safely and comfortably build up and continue expanding the EP. Just like when you exercise with weights to build muscle, over time you increase the weight to build larger muscles otherwise you hit a plateau and don’t increase muscle size but just maintain what you’ve already achieved. Stair-steps.

While I was going through this February 1, 2018 Embodiment Process expansion on multiple levels, I Saw and understood many other related things that were amazing, dare I say profound even. One of the things I Saw and understood was a greatly expanded awareness about Source and Divine Mother/Feminine and how they “make LOVE”. Not “love” but LOVE. Yeah, I know, there aren’t words only HighHeart explosions at higher and more vast levels than the last one. Release and surrender over and over and over and it starts becoming normal…

The other main aspect and side effect of the ongoing Embodiment Process is that of increasingly becoming more and more energetically Sovereign individually. Source-as-Self, Self-as-Source — eventually you become Embodied enough of your Higher Selves and those energy and consciousness levels that you directly physically house enough Source energies to be capable of energetically self-sustaining your physical body and personal reality, plus Consciously Creating much more for yourself and others as well. But to ascend to this level of being in our physical bodies requires repeatedly “making our Hearts bigger” so we can Embody more, greater and much higher frequency levels of our Higher Selves, energies, levels and Source. Increasingly doing so causes us to become more and more energetically Sovereign, meaning we’re becoming self-sustained, completely non-parasitic Beings of Light in physical bodies that are conscious of our multidimensional natures and interacting with them from this physical conscious level.

Denise

February 4, 2018