Depression is clawing at the edges of many awakened and awakening people’s being. It can feel as if the inner stuffing, our internal soul wellbeing, is being knocked out of us. Cosmic discord and global chaos challenging our mental health.

The polarity is tearing us apart literally. Relationships, families, colleagues, there are fewer places to hide. Global and local politics is forcing everyone off the fence, declare our hand, this is our truth. No more hiding for the sake of convention. Social programming to not rock the boat battles with our internal radar, tuned up and beeping louder, screaming aversion to some people and places. 

Blue pill people and red pill people moving further away from each other. What will the tipping point bring us? Will we have raised the vibes enough? Activated enough people, woken up from matrix avatar existence.  

How do we stay afloat? Not fall off, crash into the depths of despair? How do we stay upright, pushing forward, however slowly. We release our armour, our karmic camouflage, to lighten our vibration. Cosmic propulsion tosses us around like dolls in a storm. Planetary politics cuts deep into our being, triggering fear, fury and frustration. 

On the homefront we see people without their masks, we see truth in their eyes, in their actions and words. We are triggered every day by the matrix. It comes at us through people, marketing, religion, culture and education. Up we get every day, to work, care for others, earn a crust, keep our heads above water, trapped in a system rigged against us. How do we free ourselves? How do we light the way? 

By being human. By being flawed. By making mistakes and apologising. Writing our wrongs. Accepting imperfection. Being authentic can mean being authentically angry, sad, fed up. Choosing gratitude, heart led living, doesn’t just happen. Every day we are challenged. We all make mistakes. We all get it wrong sometimes. 

We are not plastic perfect people. We are raw, beautiful, sensitive beings with a spectrum of emotion many other species, from far off galaxies, are in awe of. Shadows dance in our hearts second to second. We can feel multiple emotions in a moment. Our energy fields flickering, shimmering with continual fluctuations, a rainbow of movement and magic. We are deeeeep beings, people. 

The matrix molds and makes us cardboard cutouts, synthetic fake people, but we’re not. We are complex, complicated, mercurial beings of light and dark and every shade in between. Finding balance, alignment in our core, in our energetic system, accepting who we are, warts and all. Knowing we are woven into the fabric of time and space, unique, rare, unpredictable and potentially magical.

I have no great revelations, no sort-it-all-out answers. Some days crawling out my own skin seems the only option. The smell of my children’s hair, a wink from my cats, writing to you guys, keeps me afloat. I wobble, I slip and slide round my surf board, sometimes holding on for dear life as waves of wild cosmic energy thrash around inside and out. 

Mindfulness, nature, soul tribe nourishment all work. Meditation, generating energetic flow through movement can realign us. Mantras, intentions, rituals can help us draw a line under some emotions, focus us to manifest serenity, still calm waters, moonlight flickering as we rest and star gaze. 

Yet they come again, the clash, the combat of crashing waves of recalibration colliding with matrix reality. Continuing to work on strengthening our mind body soul is an ongoing task. Release shame, stress and fear, matrix toxins used to drag us down. We are not perfect. We are human, humble and a little lost.

There is no magic wand but there is acceptance, accepting good days and bad days. Follow gut instincts, try and not let matrix algorithms cloud our judgement, with interference, static, manipluation or intimidation. Put energetic shields up from people we suspect are hacking into our systems. 

Ask for protection and guidance from higher self and guides. The law of free will means they can’t interfere until we ask them. So ask them for help when you need it. Take that leap of faith, retrain your own algorithms to a new way of seeing and trusting the world. Of energy, frequency and vibrations, not concrete walls and blocks. 

Everything is fluctuating, wavering, translucent and transient. We can affect, change and manage our lives. And on those days, hours, minutes, nights and weeks when we can’t connect to our warrior, when we feel lost and untethered, reach out to your people on the other side. They’re cheering for you. Relatives who have passed, soul mates and tribe who chose different paths. Our guides are here to support us through this tremendous quantum transition. They are all at the edges of the matrix board game, cheering us on “you’re amazing, you’re amazing.” They call to us, whispers in the wind of change. Embrace their love. 

Open connection to higher self, who knows all our flaws, all our weaknesses and knows who we can become. Let them in to help us navigate, stay afloat and surf cosmic waves. Stand on the board, hold the balance in our core, fluid limbs taking the reverbations, allowing flow of energy, riding the fluctuating frequencies around us. We will be ok. Each and every one of us can do this. Reach out, trust resonance and seek healing. The universe will answer. In love & light beautiful people.

Mantra: I am one with universal love light energy. I draw this healing light into my heart chakra restoring balance, into my crown chakra restoring calm and into my feet grounding me back into Gaia. 

I ask my guides and higher self to power up my shield of protection. Shield up.

Namaste.