Category: Personal Development Written by Sofia Falcone
How many times do we go through our day as if in autopilot? How many times do we crave to feel the magick of life yet tune ourselves out from it? We are so eager to “succeed” or to shut out the silence of life, that we have adapted no differently than a hamster in a cage…spinning round and round; it believes is going somewhere yet remains stuck…
As I sit here, feeling the warmth of the hot cocoa warm my body after a nice evening walk on the snow, I wonder why do we fear the silence of life so much? Could it be we are too afraid to discover we live in survival mode and less time doing the things we love, allowing ourselves to feel all the emotions within?
We live in a society that largely proclaims itself “new age positive” and recites nice words, but are we actually living in gratefulness? After all, the first has nothing to do with the second; if it did, we would see a very different society…a stronger yet more humane one.
Gratitude is not the act of denying the emotions we find uncomfortable, for gratitude is not denial of life, but rather the acceptance of the challenge it is to live in fullness within a society designed to strip us of our most valuable assets: our uniqueness, our passion, our ability to discern when to give love and when to have a backbone, our ability to truly feel and as such be more humane towards ourselves and others, without losing our inner warrior.
As I reflect on my life and all the reasons I would have to “hate” life, myself and others, I can’t help but accept the fact that I am who I am today partly because of my essence, and partly because of all the things I’ve survived and the mistakes I’ve made. I am far from perfect but I love this odd, nerdy, free spirited being that I am. I often think of the quote “In order to love who you are, you cannot hate the experiences that shaped you”...powerful. Don’t get me wrong, I am not saying I deserved what happened, nor am I condoning or applying a false sense of forgiveness to my life; not at all–I didn’t deserve many of the things that took place, and I have no room for pretending or making up excuses for the atrocities committed by monsters in human skin–but I am grateful to the divine in me and around me, for having given me the strength not to to succumb to hatred.
I have learned to stand up without giving my power away through hate…it is not something which happened overnight, I had to work hard to tame, embrace and love the hurt parts of my shadow; at times, I still wrestle with which wolf inside of me do I want to feed; however, more and more I am learning to utilize the strength and determination of my shadow wolf combined with the wisdom of my conscious wolf…. and I am loving the results, for I can feel my own magick…for that I am grateful.
I am grateful to life, to gratitude itself for the good and the not so good. Grateful to recognize my story is not the only one in this world, and I can only positively contribute; if only in the smallest of ways; by organically changing the outcome of what is traditionally “supposed” to happen to people who have lived through trauma.
Gratitude, I know you know I have many weaknesses and have made many mistakes, but you also know my heart and my motivation. You know I can be stubborn and I am grateful for it; although at times it makes my life harder, it has also helped provide with the resilience I needed to be my own warrior. Gratitude you know I can get angry and be almost irrational when it comes to protecting those I love…I am human and I hurt, and I don’t like to see people with malignant intent abuse others. Despite my strong demeanor which at times may scare others, you know I am also someone who is not afraid to be vulnerable; I can say this without any false modesty….I am thankful…grateful to you for making me this way.
I am grateful that you didn’t give up on me when I wanted to give up on myself. I am grateful you loved me when I didn’t feel loveable; thus teaching me to love unconditionally. I am grateful for every time time I stood up after every fall, every beating, every defeat… for it introduced me to the warrior within. I am grateful for my essence, for despite it all, I still marvel at the simplest yet most magical things life has to offer….I am so grateful for that!
I am grateful for every mentor you sent my way, for every “weird” beautiful person who taught me to accept my own “weirdness”; teaching me to let it be a light in a world that is often callous and dark. I am grateful for the gift of seeing the essence of souls and letting them see me; grateful to be the mirror by which many start to wonder “is there more to life?”…so grateful that is one of my gifts.
I am grateful for each person I work with, for they trust me with their most precious assets…heart and mind–I could not be more honored. I am grateful for every reader of my work who does not give up on me because I am still learning to express myself correctly in this language…I am genuinely grateful for their support.
I am grateful for my loved ones who mean the world to me. I am grateful for friends who have shown me family is not blood, but those who are with us through the good and bad times. I am grateful life taught me one doesn’t need to have a huge social circle, for what matters is essence not quantity.
I am grateful to the divine, which I can feel vibrating inside of me each and every day…specially when I dance–it is a sweet fire that invigorates every inch of my being–I am in love with life and I am so grateful for that.
I am grateful to you gratitude, for existing in this world, for invigorating the soul, for being a friend to those who recognize your extended hand. I am grateful to you gratitude, for you are the connection between the two wolves, between life’s duality, between the saint and the gentle sinner, between the warrior and the peacemaker….you are sweet balance, and I am so grateful to know you never leave us…you patiently wait for us to turn and say…“I am grateful because despite it all, I get to experience the fullness of life; for no one can stop me from living. I am grateful because I am divine and no one and nothing can take that away from me”…and when we do acknowledge these, you readily extend your hand to help, to guide…the constant among all the chaos; a reminder that we are more beautiful and more powerful than anything which happened to us–for all of it….I am grateful.
I passionately believe one person can make a difference. I write from my own experiences and interests. It is my greatest hope that by writing about my own challenges and hopes, others may feel inspired to believe more in their inner power and to fully embrace themselves.
Reprinted on crystalwind.ca with written permission from Sofia Falcone.
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