I talk with a dear long-time friend every so often. I love him and it always feels good to connect with him.
We share a lot of laughs, and can talk fluidly about politics, some personal subjects, and art. But he asked me a question that had me stumped. Not that I didn’t have a glorious answer, but it was an answer he wouldn’t be able to understand.
He asked, “So, besides going for your morning coffee, what do you do with your day?”
It was an awkward moment. I would have loved to say…”Well, let’s see…I’m recalibrating my body…going from carbon-based to crystalline-based biology. I’m integrating my light body and allowing spirit to be in my body and in my life. I’m letting go of my ancestral and my other connections to my past..all of it goes. I’m learning to enjoy being truly sensual, by allowing my spirit to take the steering wheel.
I’m creating a new template of what a human looks like and acts like, as I integrate my human and my divine.”
And that’s all before lunch. We do more before breakfast than most people do in a lifetime.
“We do more before breakfast than most people do in a lifetime.”
Oh, and in between I take out the garbage, pay bills, and do the other daily human maintenance. And I try to enjoy my day…I invariably opt for doing things that feel good. Whether it’s taking a walk, reading, watching Netflix or Amazon, writing. Enjoying music, or enjoying silence.
Taking a nap. Shopping. Talking to a friend. Eating yummy food.
And as much as I would love to say, these are my reasons for being alive, and they are a big part of it, the main event is being here as the Master, in a human form.
Walking this planet as the human who has integrated the Christ consciousness.
But instead I responded to my dear friend with something about writing, taking walks, working on my blog. I figured he could relate to that. I didn’t have the energy to explain myself to someone who just wasn’t going to accept what I really would have liked to say.
Even a discussion about the soul or spirit in the abstract with him was like pulling teeth. So I learned to avoid the topic.
Like so many other humans, he values doing and achieving, in a worldly sense, above just being. Or, at least, what appears to be just being. But he has also confided in me that in spite of his full schedule of things he enjoys doing, and his good connection to his partner, he still suffers from a sense of grieving, of sadness.
He said he believes he needs to do more, have more friends he can relate to, and I get it. From his perspective there’s a need to fill up from the outside.
He does not yet recognize that the sadness is a prompt from his soul to go deeper, to be awakened to the part of him that is eternal. He may not go there in this lifetime. And, he believes that this is it, that this lifetime is the only one he gets.
I hope then that he is doing everything to enjoy this lifetime, and I believe he is, on his human level. I see someone who is doing his best to enjoy this lifetime, and his partner.
I don’t have very many people in my life that I talk to regularly from a place of being the totality of who I am. And yet, I no longer feel the striking loneliness I once felt while being asleep. While I was living an unconscious life, married, surrounded by friends, associates, running a thriving business, I had moments of such acute and existential loneliness.
I too thought I needed to fill up the loneliness by engaging with more people, or doing more things. And there was a nagging anxiety that I was going to lose the things and people I came to depend so heavily upon.
I didn’t know at the time that nothing is really ever lost. That life is eternal. That there is truly nothing to fear. But I had to experience some difficult losses in my life to recognize that truth.
It took a long time for me to see that I was losing nothing, but gaining so much. I was becoming more myself, which is the self that never experiences loss, or that is never afraid.
“I didn’t know at the time that nothing is really ever lost. That life is eternal. That there is truly nothing to fear.”
