Why the Personal Self Is Not Real Explained by Sanhia Part 1
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Can you talk more about the personal self not existing? Part 1 (recorded from a live session)
The ego mind has its own definition of perfection, and it only, occasionally, accidentally bumps up against the perfection that is.
Part of that picture of perfection often is that the ego mind fully understands what is going on. But the ego mind never understands what is going on. It can't because it is insane. It feels that it is real and it thinks that you are separate from the One. And it feels it has a mind of its own that should be listened to. Einstein once said, "The mind that created the problem is incapable of creating the solution". You can rest easily with not understanding. Understanding is the function of the ego mind. Knowing is the function of Spirit. So, when you know, it is beyond understanding. There is no explaining why you know or what you know; you just know. There is certainty. That is why when you follow the will of God there is no choice. You just know. If you think there is choice, then you are in the ego mind trying to figure it out. And, as I like to say, good luck with that, because it doesn't matter what you choose. We'll talk more about these experiences of noticing, being what you think of as you, but noticing. What kind of experiences? And so you find that the world doesn't disappear if you wait and don't make a decision. What is important? If there is fear in the now, then that is what's in the now. That is the gift. But it is not something to be overcome.
Participant: Coming up distrust. Sometimes it is painful and I can feel it is so hard not to project it. I can see when I project. It is like abandoning myself. Even though I see all of this it's really hard to let it go. There is some ego voice that is so angry, or very loud. So it's really a roller coaster. And there is another thing that is very important, that's about my karmic eight. What an enormous ego power it has. How my impulse is really driven by this controlling bitch. That is also an important insight.
The place that we want to come back to is this place where there is no you. If there is no you, then there are no stories. Then there is no karmic eight. That's a story. You can deal with all of the stories. You have found in another discipline that you could deal with your feelings and deal with your feelings, and the bucket is bottomless. You never reach the end of it. There is always another feeling. There is always something else. If there is fear it works better to accept it than to resist it. But, who is having this fear? As long as you believe there is a you who has fear, you will have fear. But there is no you having this fear. That is the illusion. Go. You look and notice that there is something noticing the story; whatever it might be, that is not the story. It's simply noticing the story. No different than if you are watching a film on the television. You are noticing that story but you are not the story. So the question continually is, "Who is noticing this?", and, "Where is this noticer?" If you keep looking at that and looking at that, if you think you have found the noticer, "Who is noticing the noticer you have found?" There is a step back and a step back, but there is no forwards and backwards so we are just saying that in a metaphorical sense that there is a step back until there is simply noticing. No noticer, simply noticing.
Participant: What does that mean? The difference?
When you are watching a film, say on the television, you are noticing. First of all, you are noticing it is all projected on the screen. It's not real; it's not happening in your living room. You are simply noticing a projection on the screen. Where there is a character on the screen, you are noticing the character but you are not saying that's me. But in the screen that you call your life, you are pretending that the character that you call "you" on the screen is real. But it's not. It's an actor that you are watching. You can practice when you’re watching the television screen and notice where you project yourself into any of the characters – either through thinking, "Oh, they are a good character", or "Oh, they are a bad character", or "Oh, they shouldn't do that", or "What are they thinking?", and so on. Notice that there is projection going on. It's not real. You turn it off and everything is gone. Nothing is there. Or you can turn it back on and watch the same episode over and over and over. Does it change? It's just a projection on a screen. So you can practice with that and notice where you are giving reality to what is on the screen.
Participant: Now when I have experienced so much physical pain it feels so real because you can't get away from it, or you can take a painkiller but then everything is gone.
Now you are projecting on your screen. Is there pain present in the now?
Participant: That is a memory I am talking about.
But that is what I am talking about. A memory is not the now. It's not real. It's not happening.
Participant: I couldn't handle that in that way when it was there. And that's why I bring it up – to get some guidance around it.
In the now there may be an experience and your mind might label that experience pain. When it labels pain and names it, then it moves out of the now and allows all of the stories of pain that the mind is holding on to, to be experienced in the now. Not simply what is in the now, but the whole idea of pain and everything around it. For example, a thought comes in, "Aw (breathes deeply), what if the pain keeps getting worse and worse?" "What if it gets to a point where I absolutely can't stand it?" "What if it never stops?" "What is the meaning of this? Is this a punishment for me?" "What have I done?!" "What's the lesson I'm supposed to learn? What's the message? Spirit tell me what's the message! Why am I having this pain?" The mind goes into all of this craziness that has nothing to do with the now. It's going off in all of these directions instead of simply noticing the sensation, which is not pain. Pain is a word. You don't experience a word. So you experience something in the body. So you go into it and you just experience nothing but that; let the mind go. Doesn't matter what it's about, where it came from, why it's there, how long – it's just what is here right now. And so you say, "Thank you Spirit; this is what is here right now". And you experience it. And if the mind goes a little bit nuts and it's more than you can tolerate, then take a painkiller. (laughter). There is no right or wrong about it. And then the next time the sensation comes, it's a new experience. It's a new now. But you are with the feeling, not with the thought of the feeling, not with the label of the feeling, but just the feeling. I want you to notice the resistance you have to simply letting it be there.
Participant: Yeah. I see that.
And so, for example, you project that.
Participant: Yeah, I have noticed that. And it's one thing to notice it, but it's not so easy to stop it.
Yes, but noticing comes first. If you don't notice it, it goes on forever. And the second thing you do – you can't stop these thoughts from coming up but you say, "Ooh, but I’m not going to act on that now. Just going to notice that it's there."
Participant: Then I get a little bit shamed about, "I'm so bad I can't deal with this", and so there is judgment on myself and…
It's all the same thing. Judgment is not of the now. Judgment is comparison to what the mind thinks should be there. And the mind's crazy.
Participant: There is this fear of letting it go because then there is this abyss. That is so scary. (laughs) Scares the shit out of me.
So where is this abyss?
Participant: Yeah. (laughs) Where is the fear? From where does it come? If I accept it then it just takes over. So that is why there is some fighting against it.
It already has taken over. (laughter) You've been letting it take over, empowering it all of your life. They say that the horse is already out of the barn. The thought of the mind always is dual. There is good and there is bad. Only the good is of God; the bad is not. And of course where you fit in, the you you think of as you, you're on the bad side.
Participant: I am? (laughs)
Always. Trying to be good. "God look at how good I'm being. I'm so good." But you believe that you're bad. So what? Punishment? Sickness? “Guilt, fear, all these punishments that come to me because I'm bad.” "But I'm trying to be good. Tell me what I should learn here, God." (laughter) And all we're saying is there's no good or bad here. Whatever God brings is from God. There are no good gifts from God and bad gifts from God. It's all Divine. The mind says, "Where is the love?" The truth says, "It's all love. That's all there is." The mind says, "How can I feel loved?" The truth says, "You are love." But the mind that sees a you as real, separate from God, then sees you as not love, because God is love and you are separate from god, therefore you are not love.
Participant: Damned if I do and damned if I don't.
Loved if you do and loved if you don't.
Participant: (laughing) I think I'll choose that. Is it possible to choose that? Who is choosing?
You're choosing damned if you do and damned if you don't, because as long as it's you choosing, you are choosing separate from God. So no matter what you choose, you are choosing separation. But the truth is...not real. You're not separate. And the pain is just on the screen. It's not real. The part of you that believes there is a separate you also believes that pain is probably a good thing; because if you suffer enough, God will take you home. And if you stop suffering you are lost in hell forever.
Participant: It's a lot of confusion.
It's only the mind that creates confusion. There is no confusion, It's very, very simple. Whatever is here is from God and is Love. If you want to resist and fight it, that's when it gets confusing. You simply silence what is. How crazy would it be to try to change what is; it already is.
Footnote:
From Michael:
Hello Dear Friends,
This month's message is a new experiment. I call it "Sanhia Live!" We began with a long voice recording from a session and edited it down to two message length sections. Unlike the previous recordings of messages that are now on the YouTube channel where the original recording was transcribed and thus altered with Sanhia's guidance for the written form, then finally read by the channeled Sanhia for YouTube – this message brings the spark of life and spontaneity that those of you who have met with Sanhia have experienced. What is lost in order and perfection is more than made up for by this live energy. The second half of the message is scheduled for July. Let us know how this one feels to you. We are thinking that this may be the more common format for future messages. There is a gold mine of material, particularly from the Zoom groups.
Speaking of Zoom groups, the next six month Friday group will start in July. Many are carrying over from the past term, but there is space for new members. The group meets from noon to 2 pm EDT (the dates are listed below) and the cost for the six meetings is 2100 SEK (currently about $195, but that rate floats with currencies). If Fridays don't work for you, there is also a last Sunday of the month group that meets during the same time slot. The group members are largely Lithuanian, but everything is translated into English. We know maybe two or three words of Lithuanian ourselves. If you are interested, but neither of those days/times work for you, let us know what would work and we'll see what can be done. Any responses about Zoom groups can be sent to in reply to this email.
Michael
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